Seems I am crying almost everyday now. Sometimes its from pain but today it’s hormonal and it sounds very weak but I’ve always known crying is good for me. Its very, very cathartic and I always feel better and clear-minded after a really good cry. I’ve never been ashamed to admit that I am a crier. I think today I was at my usual staring at the window place and crying about feeling fear about the weeks ahead and feeling so out of control with everything. I think after a good hour of letting things out and letting things go, I felt normal again and went to cook dinner. I think as long as I don’t break down in front of my doctor. That would be embarrassing.